hi dear boy, i miss you so much,this feeling is undescrible...I want you t be back so badly ):
eventually you'll right? ... will you? Everything hurt so badly..tell me how do i ease
th pain can you ? I wish when im awake everything is like how we used t be last time.
How i wish we could still cuddle on th bed , like how we used to ...is all I WISH , naive.. why.
How possible , im not gna feel shitty everyday,cycle is repeating. I went t th park we go on particular day we had breakfast in th morning before you went school, i sat there fr awhile & think back, we used t seat thr, me lying in your arm.I took th route that night we quarrel n walk back home from cwp...all memories. Why am i typing all this down....i've no idea. No ideas if you will see it but.....): I wana be happy , i really want. I doesnt know how t put up a smile, when im dying inside ... going school at least i'll smile a lil tiny bit i got nice classmates ard who joke ard, back at home , memories haunting me again again & again . This totally killing me....all th totoros staring at me with a blank look, im blank too . The empytiness overwhelm me
Arghh, why am i still at th same point??!?!!?! No matter how other tell me, i would listen but nothing really went in...why are they saying u so bad?! ..... yes , people often say dont giveup a tree for th whole forest.. they dont understand how important th tree is t mount everest . I know i ruin this all this... ): our future that we plan, all those lil stuff we thought we can do in th future ... WHY DID I RUIN IT MYSELF, i hate myself. I thought we could last......:'( i really want to.. do you feel me, i love you :(
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